What am I doing up at this hour?

For whatever reason sleep is eluding me!  There are probably many reasons - BIG issues at work, BIG family health concerns, Smaller holiday concerns and my constant companion - time concerns!  Do I sound like a broken record??
I just commented on another blog about how sometimes God subtly tries to get us to heed His message and when we refuse to listen, He does something to get our attention.  Why do we let it go that far?
Why haven't I spoken up at work sooner?  Why haven't I been more involved in the health concerns throughout my family?  Will I ever get my time isses under control?
What is He trying to tell me?
Any ideas?

Fall is here!

I'm sure I'm not telling you something you don't already know if you live in the northern part of the United States.  This morning we had our first frost.  I had to scrape my windshield before I went to church.  On the way home from church I was in awe of the beautiful colors that were spread across the land ahead of me.  I stopped periodically and took several photos.

The frost was receding as the roof was warmed by the sun.

My sister is a quilter.  I want her to help me put together some fabric that matches these colors.  I love this palette.

It's mostly fun ....

I love to help.  I love to say yes.  I love to be involved.  I love to think I'm appreciated.  On the other hand, I need to say no.  I need to love no.  I need to stay home; where I am appreciated!

There is no easy answer.  Prioritize is a great word but not an easy action.  Can't wait for the current project to be done but already thinking about what's next.  No wonder 24 hours isn't enough.

I vow to not say yes for 30 days.  Can I do it ....yyyy........ooops.........no!  Well, maybe.  Not likely.  Let's start small.  I will not commit to another project for the next hour.

That made me smile.  No one is home but Vivianne and I, perhaps I can do it.

Spring Yarn Swap

I love swaps, especially the swaps set up by Emily at Yarn Miracle!  Received my swap box all the way from Montana on Saturday, 4/12, while I was away having fun with my sisters. My dear husband hinted I had a package.  Finally sat down last night about 10 pm and opened it...WOW!

Great pattern and purple (do I have to repeat, my fave) yarn and Becky thoughtfully included a cute little wind chime, highlighted with a purple dragonfly.  She also sent a grow strawberry, a needle case with 2 needles, Wrapture no rinse delicate wash w/jasmine oil (it smells great!), and some caramels and tea that are local from her area in Montana!  The postcard contains a nice message from Becky and I'm going to steal that idea for my next swap :)  The only thing you don't see is a mini lint roller which is already in my purse.  Becky and I both have cats and understand the value of lint rollers :)  All this carefully enclosed in pretty turquoise polka dot tissue paper. Thanks Becky and Emily!!

Sisters Weekend

Last night (4/12) was sister night for April.  My two sisters and I spent the morning and early afternoon at a local quilt show, then headed to the casino for an overnight adventure.  We aren't dedicated gamblers though we have spent a 20 or 2 on a occasion but not this time.  We agreed to take our 'fat clothes'(translate elastic waist pants and baggy T) and a portable project, for our afternoon entertainment.  Jan brought cross stitch, Melia brought sewing and I knit.  We spent the time prior to dinner solving world affairs, both public and private. Then gussied up a bit, enjoyed a wonderful buffet dinner then off to the entertainment for the evening, Kevin Costner and Modern West .  Candidly, we were more interested in seeing Kevin Costner than we were listening to his music, but guess what, he/they put on a great show!!  We really enjoyed it and the evening was a lot of fun.
Went to the all night cafe for dessert and a beverage and met some nice folks standing in the line.  Because we're members, we were seated before them; "Hey that's not fair" they joked.  We noticed where they were seated later and decide to buy them dessert too.  We stopped at their table as we were leaving and spent a few more minutes chatting.  Turns out they were celebrating a 75th birthday and a coming 50th anniversary :) It was one of those special moments of genuine human connection.  We parted with hugs and smiles and walked away feeling all was right with the world.
Back to our room, fat clothes, projects and talk for several more hours.  Bleary eyed at 7:30 AM Sunday morning, we got up, ordered in room breakfast, which is a luxury that has become a special treat that we all enjoy and talked some more. Beautiful day for the trip home and life returns to 'normal'.  But normal feels better today, I'm closer to my sisters, we each have thoughts to contemplate and it felt good to pay it forward.
For your viewing pleasure --

The view from our room!  The 10th floor.

The beds were very comfortable but the pillows not so much.

We were in the next to the last row in our section :(   He provided some of the audience members a real thrill.  He came to the stage from the back of the facility, walking down the aisle between two sections.  Some of  those lucky souls were an arms length away from Kevin Costner!

Pictures speak to me

I was reading an article about Anja Niedringhaus yesterday, the photographer that was killed in Afghanistan this week. I am a visual person, I need to see it.  I'm not good at imagining how things are going to look, what will fit where or how big is that space.  I believe this to be the reason why my walls are bare, but that's another story!  The comments I read about what a wonderful person she was, both professionally and personally, made me wonder why she chose to do that type of work, in that part of the world.

I stopped and scanned through some of the pictures in my files and I discovered that nearly all of my photos were taken during happy times.  Occasionally there were stressful times, like our recent water well issues or building our home or a landscaping project that was not cooperating.  But all these things turned out OK in the end, which is why I took photos!  Tears welled up in my eyes seeing pictures of Parker.  I am sad because he is gone but, at the time of the photo I was smiling.  Tears came again seeing photos of Marty and his Mom, who has been gone 3 years, but, at that moment it was a fun family time. 

The thought of purposely taking photographs of war, it's aftermath and the horrible pain humans cause each other is so far beyond my comfort zone, I can't imagine doing it.  If I try to think about it with perspective, rationalize it, I can, see the need but I guess what stumps me the most, how she found the strength to detach.........or did she?  Just looking at old photos of our beloved Parker, caused me the loss of emotional control for a time this morning.  HOW did Anja maintain her composure under such difficult circumstances?

Photographs speak to my eyes, my mind, my heart in ways I cannot express in words.  If I'm thinking of a familiar photograph, say my wedding photos, I don't have to physically see the photographs to know what's in them.  In this instance, I can conjure the picture, the location, the colors, the people, even as tears well in my eyes or as a smile spreads across my face. I can look at a photo album filled with people I don't know and enjoy every picture on every page.  What I said earlier about being a visual person, probably a more accurate statement is, I am an emotional person.  When I'm remembering that familiar picture, what I'm really remembering is the emotion attached to the subject, not the simple color photograph.  This must be the gift of a great photographer like Anja, she can see beyond the lens, beyond the point and shoot of my little camera, to capture the emotion of the moment, to save it for another day.

Prayers for her family and friends during this difficult time.  Many thanks to Anja and her cohorts for being brave enough to capture other worlds through the lens of their cameras to document that moment in time. 

Pleasant reminder

My friend Kathy has a way with words, her style of writing paints a beautiful picture, no matter the subject. She recently wrote about listening and reminded me that my ears are not the only component involved with being a good listener.  I was reminded to listen with my eyes. My intent is never to marginalize the person who is speaking but I fear that I do so, without thinking.  And honestly, in the scramble of daily life, I may do many more things than I realize, without thinking.
I appreciated the pleasant reminder and I will start this day, ready to really listen.